burst. bursted. bursting.

I don't even know where to begin. I don't think it matters because if you think about it the beginning started a really long time ago.

So I've been away, yes this is true. Things aren't perfect but I think that that's the only thing that actually is perfect. 

I'm not always going to know what to do. I am not always going to have the answers. There are many answers I will never have. I won't always be able to cope by myself. I am not always going to be happy. It's funny but true that uncertainty is about the only thing we can rely on, and if that makes you feel down you have to remind yourself that, although there are unpleasant surprises, some outcomes are very exciting.

The important thing is the bottom line. Dear bloggy and it's readers, I'm back.

I have a most wonderful inner child. She comes out when I'm blue. When I'm alone and I need to cheer myself up, I dress up :) Even if it's late and I have nowhere to go. It's one of my most favorite things to do. Just because we stop playing with barbies doesn't mean we stop the game. I'm the barbie now. I dress myself up and I run my own life. Life is so quirky. I like loop holes, but not the lazy kind.

A hello kiss! Here I am! I feel good when I look good so it's all good in the hood :)

So like, next topic please! I'm back and ready to art attack! Do you know that show? I used to watch it all the time. It was my favorite. I remember missing it once. I cried. I love the crafts and Neil's accent. The ending was the best, the landscape art attacks. My sisters and I would always yell out what we thought it was going to be. He's really amazing. You have to watch this one.

I am in love. I am in love. I am in love.I am in love. I am in love. I am in loveI am in love. I am in love. I am in loveI am in love. I am in love. I am in loveI am in love. I am in love. I am in loveI am in love. I am in love. I am in loveI am in love. I am in love. I am in loveI am in love. I am in love. I am in love. with life

Put on your coat and don't frown yo!

It was chilly-ish today. A week ago we were ecstatic to have 15 degree weather, but since we had that summer-hot Saturday & Monday, 15 degrees sucks? Com'on folks, quit complaining. It's annoying and negative. Surely it's nippy, but don't cuss about it. It's April!

I looked fly this morning with my white-as-snow blazer cruising down Taschereau sporting my favorite pink aviators. Took me forever to find those babes. Searched high and low and could not find these shades. Finally found them being sold by a dude in the subway. Paid five bucks. He had two pairs left. I bought both.

Something about white makes me feel fancy. I dryclean this jacket to keep it crisp, which makes me feel fancy too.

I liked my hair today. Au naturel. My lip gloss matched my lenses.

here I walk

along the curb

the traffic is thick

the mass is moving quickly

slowly I follow

dragging my toes

sauntering

my drive is just a little dusty

my confidence a little rusty

I'll merge when I trust you will yield

then you won't pass me

anymore

you will find me

when the time is right

what color do you feel like today?

Recently, I have a growing fantasy to own 1, ooo, ooo different colors:



In the last few years I've been really conscious on setting myself free of materialism. I would be lying if I said I loved myself 100%. I mean, yes, there are days when I feel less-than-flawless and I admit to having tried a number of different beauty services. I used to get acrylic nails a lot because I used to bite my real nails to the skin. I wanted to feel more girly, which in the end, made me feel prettier. With time, I've completely stopped biting my nails. They're still a little weak and break sometimes, but I have got them long most times au naturel, and they will strengthen in time. I stopped wearing nail polish for a while so that my nails could recover from the super-toxic-badness of acrylic. But now, suddenly, I have these crazy urges to buy nail polish in every color and wild variations! Yesterday my nails were black: they made me feel edgy and chic. Today, they are a very light, baby pink: they make me feel very girly and gentle. I have beautiful nails, and they are my own :) And I paint them sometimes when I'm feeling colorful ;)

I work on self-love everyday. Feels so good to throw that nail-doubt, out!

I LOVE MY REAL NAILS!
♥